Oh,how much worse can it get when I'm miles away from the cosiness of home in the month of Ramadhan.I don't even want to think of Eid-Fitri,it's gonna be my worst nightmare ever.What's with a 3 days trip to Toba Lake or Brastagi,I wouldn't really care because what I'm longing for right now is to be home,with the family.I'm really,really sick of this sick place.

Oh,I haven't been updating since I arrived in Medan.Well,with all the lies and whatsoever bullshit I'm facing over here,I simply can't find my time to do this.Tight schedule,very intense,classes from 7am to 5pm,with up to 3 lab sessions in a week,of Biochem,Histo and Chem,tutorials starting this week,cases to be solved,weird,weird lecturers...I'm exhausted!Wait till I get my own internet connection.

And,I think I've lost contact with people.Like a major one.Distance plays a part,no doubt about it.Hence,I will never set upon a LDR.I won't make it through one.It's like so impossible for me.How am I suppose to keep in touch with people when keeping in touch is soooo hard to do,be it for my part or the other party.Now,I shall leave it to God to set myself close to the people I adore,despite the thousands of miles that separate us.

People do unpredictable things for love.
People deceive for love.
People live pretentiously for love.
People change for love.
People leave for love.
And,people hate for love.

"Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world,i think about the the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport.General opinion started to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed,but I don't see that.It seems to me that love is everywhere,often is not particularly dignified or newsworthy,but it's always there.Fathers and sons,mothers and daughters,husbands and wives,boyfriends,girlfriends,old friends.When the planes hit the twin towers,as far as I know,none of the phone calls from the people on board were mesaages of hates and revenge,they were all messages of love.If you look for it,I have a sneaky feeling that love is actually all around."~Love Actually

It comes to you unexpectedly.Sometimes,you just set your mind that he/she's the one once your eyes captured the view of his/her face,but she/he may not be.Soon,there will be talks,nasty ones you listen to,that you'll have that disgusting feelings when you visualize yourselves being together.But,on another tangent,there could be someone else,longing for your presence in his/her life,without you noticing it.Well,no,I'm not in a situation you're thinking I am,I'm still far,far apart from such a situation,too busy to deal with,and too afraid to love,because love to me,means not afraid to lose at the same time.And,I'm not ready to lose any.Love is too precious to lose.It's like when you love someone,you're afraid to tell the truth or listen to one,because you simply don't want to lose the beautiful feeling you already have.

And,love isn't a good thing when it drops you straight into a completely new world which isn't yours,and worst when love requires you to compromise with some other aspects of higher priorities,and you start to tolerate with it.God forbid.

"Ya Allah,satukanlah hati-hati kami..."

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